Where is the Light?

I was talking with one of my dear friends at work today, and a fire that has been building in me was stirred afresh. A bit of backstory. For as long as I can remember, I have had a fascination with healing. I have longed to be a conduit for God to show His power in the lives of people. I have seen hurt and sickness and pain, and ached to see it changed. This is a desire of my heart. I have also been prayed for / told / prophesied over that I had the gift of healing.

So one day (at least 4 to 6 years ago, I think. Man that’s pathetic that I have taken this long.) I was talking to God about this and he told me the first step for me was to look up every verse in Bible that was about healing or faith. I never did this. I have to do this.

So back to now, for the past month I have had this building desire to see this particular woman in the church healed. She has been in a wheel chair for as long as I know. She has some kind of muscular disease, and is very crippled. I have been praying quietly behind her in the church every Sunday. This past Sunday she went up to the front for healing, and I actually went and prayed for her. Nothing visible happened. That’s part of the point of this post.

Here’s the other part, I think a large part of what hinders the move of God in the lives of Believers (who actually believe that God can move now – that’s a whole different discussion) is the lack of light that we show. We really any different than everyone else. We do ‘most’ of the same things. We see the same movies. We listen to the same music. We enjoy the same things. (I am not telling you not to see movies or listen to music. Don’t major on the wrong things here.) Here’s the thing. We don’t stand out. We don’t show light in dark places. We are in the world and of the world. So, since there is nothing different about us, why would God move through us to show the lost and hurting and dying that they should keep living the same way. If there is nothing for God to draw attention to, then why would He. Maybe I am way off here. Please feel free to tell me I am a wacko. I am open to some other well thought out perspectives.

So how do we show light? How can we be visibly and noticeably different, so that they call us names like ‘the Way’? I am not sure yet. I know that I must work continually at being the pure and devoted man of God that I am called to be. I know that compromise must be rooted out in my life.

I also know that I need to walk in power. That the Power of God has to show. One thing I will say here, that woman WILL be healed. She will walk, and be totally a new person. Just wait. (Dang I’m crazy to say that. Good.)